Dreams

Well since I've been pregnant I have had some of the craziest dreams of my life and like all the time. I had a dream last night that Joe and I had a beautiful little girl. I wonder if that will come true. But we really want a boy first.

RIP Mr. Winter

So this is Winter. He used to sleep with me in my bed while I live with my parents. I guess he tried to do my homework that night and it was to tough for him to do so he just went to sleep. We got the dog when I was about 12 years old and he has to be put to sleep today. He had a good life of good food, extra foods that grandkids would feed him, and the food that he would steal from kids if they weren't carefully enough. He was such a sweet little guy. I will miss him when I visit home next. But honestly he was around 14 years old and we all knew it was coming and dismorning the poor guy couldn't even walk so my mom really had no choice. But he will still be missed.

Family

So last night I went to eat with my cousin Nick, his wife Mandy, and their 3 little girls. I haven't seen this cousin since I was little probably around 12 or 14 or something like that. Dinner was nice and conversation was good. But it kind of makes you sad when you don't even know your own family. Nick said he didn't really remember me at all, which is kind of hard to hear. I kind of remember him because we always stayed with his family while we did are semi-annual trips to Utah for my Dad's family reunion.
So I grew up in a family where it really was just my parents and us kids. We didn't really have much contact with any of the rest of my family. The only 2 times I ever saw my mom's family was when everyone came out to see Grandma Ivy (mom's mom) kind of before she died and when Grandma died I saw them again. But Uncle Tony is the exception because he actually comes tome visit us.
For my dad's side the only time we ever saw them is when we made the 2 day trip (almost always in car, but there were a couple of train rides, and a flight or 2) to go out there. They never have come to see us. It's kind of sad to grow up in a family where you don't even know your cousins. But I guess that's what you get when both of your parents move away from family you don't get that cousin bonding thing.
So then you have Joe's family who he grew up with his aunts, uncles, and cousins like they were a real family. So I almost wish we had something like that, but it won't happen with my family because we are every where now. It's crazy. I feel like I barely know my own family anymore. I guess maybe I'm just hormonal, but I wish I knew my family more and weren't so far away.

Pregnancy thus Far

So I think I'm 9 week tomorrow, so really not all that long. I bet a lot of people saw the status on facebook. I really didn't want it to come out that way, but Joe changed his status, so I just went with it. So I guess I just hope that the whole waiting till 3 months thing doesn't bite me in the butt, but to be real honest I'm not worried about that. I cannot believe how much changes in even this short of time!
So the first month and week or so were so easy! I was feeling good except for the whole tired thing, but I always went back to bed when Joe left for work so it was ok for me. Oh and the fact that the girls still hurt a lot and are already growing! But to be honest I could deal with those kind of things because I figured it was a given.
So now it isn't as easy as it was. I feel sick a lot! I have days where I hardly have an appetite where I want to eat anything. There are other days where I so hungry and try to eat where I start to gag on food and then I cry sometimes because I just want to eat! I cry a lot! But I also thought that was a given because I always got so moody during aunt flo. I just didn't know it was going to be this bad! And my digestion sucks! Either I can't poo or I can't stop! LOL! Sorry I just wanted to say it lol!
Last Friday was my first doctor's appointment. Really I didn't even see the doctor, all they asked for was paper work to be done and asked about genetic history and took a lot of blood and I peed in a cup. I go back I think on the 29th to listen for a heart beat and all that stuff! I'm excited! I guess that's it for the most part.

The crazy Squirrel

Ok minus the camera, the squirrels down here are really red compared to the ones back home which are mostly grey. So we have a bank of mail boxes in the middle of the apartment complex which you have to walk through a small court yard and past another row of apartments to get to. We live on the outside of the complex. So going to get the mail today I was thinking how nice the weather was. I felt comfortable in my sweat shirt and didn't need to add anything else to feel any warmer. It was nice! So coming back to the court yard our apartment sits in is this little squirrel. It starts to follow me. I get freaked out by it because all I can think about is what happens if you get rabies and are pregnant and I was scared! So I'm trying to shoo it away with my mail, but it just keeps looking at my mail like it's something I'm going to feed it. So I keep telling it to go away and it won't listen. I start to feel dumb because I'm talking to a squirrel and now I think I'm like my mom for yelling at squirrels. LOL! Anyways... So I figure it won't follow me up the stairs that are outside the apartment (we live on the second floor, but all the hall ways are out doors), but I was wrong it followed me up to the door of my apartment! So I'm afraid it's going to just follow me in! So I try to get him pushed back a little and then I make my way quickly in. But honestly I have never had anything like that happen to me ever! If I wasn't pregnant, I probably would have tried to pet it, because honestly It was less than a foot from me like the whole time. It was crazy! We'll see if I see that guy again. Jeez!