Sleep

So David has been sleeping in a lot lately. I'm not sure if he's just trying to sleep more at night or what it is. Last night he didn't get to bed till about 9:30 since there was a relief society thing at church and he went with me since Joe's working night again. So he woke up twice like always (though he seems like he might be moving away from it) and he was still asleep when I woke up about quarter to 12. Normally I don't like going in there since his door creaks and I thought it would wake him, but since Monday he has had an actual pillow in there with him I decided I needed to check on him.

I wish I had a camera in hand when I went in. He had the pillow on his face, but since it's a new pillow it still has the spring to it so it was sticking off his face and just leaning on his forehead. It was so cute. But not ever a full minute later his eyes shot open and he was ready to go.

So how many of you give your babies a pillow in their beds? I wouldn't have done it until one night when I was putting him to bed I noticed he was pushing his blanket together to make a soft pillow like thing under his head so I figured why not. After all he's almost 14 months old anyways.

Friendship

So I'm not sure why but when it comes to friends I always kind of feel like I'm the one holding it together or the one who's left holding the bag. Imagine if you will how on facebook and you have the relationship status, mine would be the one who says in a friendship even though that friend is no where to be found. I know this might sound odd to you, but maybe I'm just one of those who feels like I put so much into certain friendships and when I can't get them to even return a phone call after several attempts it really hurts and bothers me. Maybe that's just how friendship are to end. When you realize that these people really don't care to hear from you anymore so they just stop doing anything at all. But I don't really know. I have friends who I don't talk to much, but when I do talk to them we can pick up where we have left off even if it's been awhile. Then there are others since we might not live in the same place or see each other much it just seems really strained. I guess it kind of bothers me when that happens. Since one of my very best friendships has been with a girl who we haven't lived in the same place for about 13 years and we are still best buds. So you might be wondering why on earth I'm rambling on and on about this, but this was one of my new years goals. To forget those who have forgotten me. And you might think this seems really easy, like as easy and just turning a page in a book, but to me it's not that simple. I have a lot of friends that I truly love and it really makes me sad that I don't ever hear from them, or even ever get a word out to them. So that's why it's a goal, because it really is a hard thing for me to do and I'm trying to move forward instead of backwards or sideways. I think part of this makes it so hard since friends come in and out of your lives so fast in the military. You don't really get to settle in to much before certain people move away. I truly miss many friends who are no longer here. So might never have that great of a bond again, But know that I think of you all a lot and just hope you have the best you can have.

Life

So when you go into a room and there is a funny smell. You can't exactly tell where it is coming from but it hits you when you go into the room. I kind of feel like people have been judging me and I am that funny smell. I have never been told I was bad in any way well except a few things, but come on no one is perfect. I feel like people are in my life almost indirectly judging me. I'm really bothered right now. Just wanted to put it out there where people who actually wanna look will see it.

So I have a question for you

So looking at this picture does it make you feel uncomfortable? Maybe I've been desesitized from being in the military, or being a grown up with all the smut around me. At first it didn't bother me but now I'm not so sure. I saw this picture on facebook shared by a fellow lds friend. Thinking it was funny I then reposted it only to have a young women from my class at church (I'm a teacher for it at church) message me that it was porn. So what do you think? That is the question.