Friendship

So I'm not sure why but when it comes to friends I always kind of feel like I'm the one holding it together or the one who's left holding the bag. Imagine if you will how on facebook and you have the relationship status, mine would be the one who says in a friendship even though that friend is no where to be found. I know this might sound odd to you, but maybe I'm just one of those who feels like I put so much into certain friendships and when I can't get them to even return a phone call after several attempts it really hurts and bothers me. Maybe that's just how friendship are to end. When you realize that these people really don't care to hear from you anymore so they just stop doing anything at all. But I don't really know. I have friends who I don't talk to much, but when I do talk to them we can pick up where we have left off even if it's been awhile. Then there are others since we might not live in the same place or see each other much it just seems really strained. I guess it kind of bothers me when that happens. Since one of my very best friendships has been with a girl who we haven't lived in the same place for about 13 years and we are still best buds. So you might be wondering why on earth I'm rambling on and on about this, but this was one of my new years goals. To forget those who have forgotten me. And you might think this seems really easy, like as easy and just turning a page in a book, but to me it's not that simple. I have a lot of friends that I truly love and it really makes me sad that I don't ever hear from them, or even ever get a word out to them. So that's why it's a goal, because it really is a hard thing for me to do and I'm trying to move forward instead of backwards or sideways. I think part of this makes it so hard since friends come in and out of your lives so fast in the military. You don't really get to settle in to much before certain people move away. I truly miss many friends who are no longer here. So might never have that great of a bond again, But know that I think of you all a lot and just hope you have the best you can have.